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just for the record... [30 Oct 2006|11:48pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]
[ music | change your mind- all american rejects ]

I was looking back on entries and most of them i write becuz i'm sad/depressed or whatever. but i guess thats what a diary is for. i'd keep a real diary, but i like typing so much better than writing. and when i write when i'm angry i can't really read it afterwards anyways... it looks like chicken poop. so i might as well document my emerging adulthood angst in a format where i can perhaps look back on it and realize how ridiculous i was being for worrying about some of this crap. but honestly, i guess i would also like to document that i'm a generally happy person.. in case anyone reading this (including myself in some future time maybe) would think i'm a miserable person... not that anyone who really knows me would i guess. wow, i should stop procrastinating and do my physics hw asap.... yeaaaa PHYSICS.

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[29 Oct 2006|10:55pm]
[ mood | lonely ]
[ music | semi-charmed life, third eye blind ]

it never gets easier to say goodbye... its been 3 years of this bullshit being apart and i still get emotional EVERYTIME i have to say goodbye for another 3+ weeks (which is nothing compared to people that go months upon months without seeing their bf/gf) I hate getting emotional. i'm finding that when i watch movies where someone's significant other dies... i tend to get teary... cuz i start thinking about how i would feel in that situation (i can't help it) basically... i guess i never thought i'd be this way.. i'm not used to it, and i don't like it.

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[09 May 2006|11:53pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i guess having a mom be happy to have me home is too much to ask for. i'd even settle for a mom that was indifferent to my return. but no, my mom calls me the day before i'm coming home when i have a huge final the next day to tell me that she wants me to give her my house key bcuz she doesn't trust her daughter to be in HER house, if she leaves for the night.. thanks mom, luv ya too.

i know this shit is getting old to hear, but u know what? the fact that this shit happens all the time doesn't make it hurt any less... if anything it hurts more. cuz it just never ends, no matter what i do. no matter how hard i try. i just wish i could be myself and still get along with my mom.

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blaaaaah [18 Apr 2006|01:00pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | finaid ]

a lot of my friends are either cheating on their significant other or knowingly fooling around with someone that has a significant other. and its making me depressed. because no matter what, I can't help but put myself in that other person's place.... and i can imagine how they would feel....or how i would feel anyway. and most of the people that are doing this... i never thought would, and that makes it even worse. because then i can't help thinking, no matter how hard i try not to.... what if i'm that stupid girlfriend that has no idea what her boyfriend does behind her back. bcuz i trust justin, but these girls/boys are trusting their boyfriends/girlfriends as well. its just that i have been that girl.. soo many times.. it makes it impossible not to think of the possibility.

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[01 Mar 2006|09:19pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]
[ music | NOTHING ]

I fucking hate technology. I got this virus from one of my friends thru AIM and the virus software that i have doesn't detect it. so i unintalled AIM and installed the new Titron AIM because its the only version that i can install now. And it is complete bullshit. first of all, it automatically puts up away messages if i'm idle and i don't know how to turn that off. and the whole putting up an away message feature is dumb and more complicated anyway. and people on my buddy list are still "unknown" and it doesn't make a noise when they IM me, which is a problem because a lot of the time i'll be on my bed doing homework but won't be away so i'm not exactly paying attention to my computer. oh yea, and so i try to log in today because it signed me off randomly and the password that i had stored, that signed me on the last time, is no longer vaild. I HAVE HAD THE SAME PASSWORD FOR EVERYTHING SINCE LIKE FRESHMAN YEAR. and i went to the AIM site for password help and it says i can't even put in a request for a password for the next twenty four hours because i have tried to sign on using this password over and over again. can i just say that AIM offically sucks balls. i feel completely disconnected, and fustrated.

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[20 Feb 2006|09:46pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | see you in hell, grim reaper ]

Fuck my mother. i believe she is crazy. i hope its not hereditary. and i hope i spelt that right. but seriously, I AM SO MAD RIGHT NOW.

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[22 Jan 2006|01:53am]
[ mood | crappy ]

I am not happy in a school where 70% of the population consists of wicked DUMB GIRLS.

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:D [19 Jan 2006|12:16am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]
[ music | american girl, Tom Petty ]

My cousin just asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding. WHOOOOHOOOOOOO! I love getting dressed up! I mean, its like the maid of honor without all the work. haha, I'm stoked.

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FUCK [06 Dec 2005|12:08pm]
[ mood | scared ]
[ music | silence ]

WARNING TO ALL NEW HAMPSHIRE DRIVERS!!!

After this semester, a dear boy named Brian Gacek will be joining the NH State troopers. Let me give u a little background on this guy

not only is he part of the security tean on campus but he is an RA. soooo he's a little power hungry

if u remember last year when i got busted for drinking it was by this guy. if not, lemme give you a refresher.

he stood with his ear to our door long enough for a friend down the hall to have time to notice him doing so and call my friend's cell phone to tell him he was outside our door. sucky thing is he heard the cell phone ring... and thats when he knocked on the door. he claimed he was "just walking by when he heard the world 'alcohol' and knocked right away." we know no one said alcohol because we were talking the entire time about something completely and totally unrelated to us drinking.

the next day he came back to the room since he only found 1 empty and 3 beers in the fridge. my friend wasn't there but his roommate was who wasn't even in the room when we got busted. he "accidentally" kicked a bag that was on the floor and heard cans so he asked the roommate to open it. the roommate not knowing any better did so, and there were the rest of the empties. when my friend came back to his room and found out what happened he went to brian gacek to ask him what was going to happen because of the empties. brian claimed he was just there to say hi to the roommmate (which he couldn't remember the name of) and that nothing was going to happen with the empties he found (because he knew, but would not admit, that he shouldn't of done that) i think he WAS going to write us up for them because he assumed that we had no idea that he went into the room the next say. cuz when asked if he sent in the reports he said "no, i have to fix them"

one of my friends was perfectly and leagally parked in one of our parking lots. one morning brian goes up to her and said "you should probably get that smirnoff bottle out from under your seat" he had NO REASON to look into her car. he had to of been checking every single car because she was in the middle of the row and she had never gotten written up for anything and yet he looked into her car. plus it was under the seat in a paper bag, all u could see is the cap. he must've really been lookin.

he wrote someone up for their away message. he prinited it out, brought it to housing and they got written up for not complying with whatever it was. (the away message just contained insults geared towards brian gacek and my old RA tim)



so basically this guy LIVES... absolutely LIVES for getting people in trouble. i'm scared... hopefully he is more northern nh than southern.

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this is just getting ridiculous [05 Dec 2005|07:17pm]
[ mood | busy ]
[ music | oh, goddamnit- hot hot heat ]

Ok so justin and i are deciding on vaporizers and trying to figure out what is what. so I go to this site and it tells how vaps work and i'm like hoooly shit.. they are doing organic chemistry.

i had to do a fractional distilation lab (speparation of components with different boiling points by reaching their boiling points) and THAT is what it does. it gets the marijuana hot enough to reach THC's boiling point without burning the plant. wtf. this seriously is ruining my life. i can't even smoke pot now without thinking about how much it has to do with organic chemsitry.

Bring on 5 weeks completely ochem free please???????

in other news
alkaline trio, the bravery, hot hot heat, morningwood, and justin tomorrow! i'm so excited i don't even care that i won't get back till past 2am and i have organic chemistry at 8am.

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Every Thug needs a lady- Alkaline trio [30 Nov 2005|07:51pm]
[ mood | lovingmuzak ]

I know it's dark here, you know that I'm scared too
For some reason right now, of everything but you
Right now you're all that I recognize
You know I came here when I needed your soft voice
I needed to hear something that sounded like an answer
Now I wait here, and sometimes I get one

It's nothing I'll forget when the moon gets tired
You are stuck to me everyday
Believe in what I am because it's all I have today
And tomorrow who knows where we'll be
From here I can hardly see a thing
But I will follow anyone who brings me to you
For now, forever, for on and on and on

You know it starts here, outside waiting in the cold
Kiss me once in the snow, I swear it never gets old
And I will promise you I can make it warmer next year
You know I came here when I needed your soft voice
I needed to hear something that sounded like an answer
Now I stay here, and everyday I get one

It's nothing I'll forget when the moon gets tired
You are stuck to me everyday
Believe in what I am because it's all I have today
And tomorrow who knows where we'll be
From here I can hardly see a thing
But I will follow anyone who brings me to you
For now, forever, for on and on and on

So go plug in your electric blanket
We can stay in 'till our southern summer wedding day
Go plug in your electric blanket
We can stay here

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organic chemistry is my loverrrrr [20 Nov 2005|09:04pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | ac/dc you shook me all night long ]

Does anyone feel they need a break REALLY bad? i do fo' sho'.

We had a thanksgiving turkey dinner at school only i think the turkey took a bath in salt water. it made me sigh and think of deep fried turkey my uncle who was a chef in the marines makes. plus the whole family (all 4 aunts and approx. 12 cousins worth) pull out all the stops and make so much food that i HAVE to stop eating before I want to. i'm excited! but one good thing the school did was have our teachers wait on us. it was nice. i wish ochem teacher waited on us, i woulda drank more milk so she would have to get me more.
Ochem test is tomorrow, which is the reason i did nothing (and i mean nothing) this weekend. hopefully it pays off.
OH! but i did see harry potter! i am sosososososososo glad that I did not read the book again before the movie because i woulda been pissed cuz i know a lot of things weren't the same (like a super tough important tree changed locations) and pretty much all the sub-plots were gone. but i got to enjoy it for what it was and i absolutely LOVED it.(although on more than one occasion i got the strange sensation to jump through the screen and punch good ol' "loyal" snape in the goddamn nose).
i don't think my dad is talking to me again because he has to pay child support since he is over 5 grand behind and the court says so. that sucks cuz i need my oil and fuel filter changed and he has the perfect garage (not to mention the fuel filter i bought) to do that. plus i have this thing wrong with my computer screen that makes it hard to read things sometimes and he knows how to fix it. but its the holidays and even in the days before divorces and child support he would not talk to us on thanksgiving and christmas. i wish he wasn't so effed in the H.(aka head).

now back to ochem because its basically my life.

ways i know that ochem is my life
at the vet workshop last weekend there were three balloons tied together. and automatically i said it was sp3 hybridized (cuz thats what it looked like) and when i saw 2 balloons were tied together i said that they are a P orbital (the fellow students at the vet workshop knew what i was talking about)
the other day i found myself absent mindedly doodling chair conformations and the ring flips of cyclohexanes on my notebook instead of... well... ANYTHING ELSE.
my internet bookmarks consist of links to...
SDBS (special data base for organic compounds)
acros organics
sigma-aldrich chemical company
chemexper.com

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:( [09 Nov 2005|11:30pm]
[ mood | WICKEDsad ]

I hate organic chemistry probably more than a lot of things right now. its pretty bad when u have ur books and notes to do a quiz and only get a 53. It makes me depressed. I probably hate it even more because Biochemistry closed when i tried to register for it due to UNE being more like JEWne so i had to register for ochem next semester (its either one or the other). I can't take ochem next semester.

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awesomest show everrrrrr [09 Nov 2005|01:39am]
[ mood | sleepy ]
[ music | America (fuck yeah) in my head for the next 8 years ]

It is 2am, I have organic chemistry at 8am, a Stats quiz at 9am... but i am STILL glad i went to the suicide machines show tonite because

1) They played America (Fuck Yeah) as their opening thing

2) He insisted on us saying "fuck yeah" after everything he said, and we did

3) The encore consisted of half the audience screaming "one more" and the other half screaming "fuck yeah"

4) I was in the front

5) the lead singer jumped into the crowd and rocked out with everyone on atleast 4 separate occasions.

6) He was wearing the exact same "doing it since 96" big d and the kids table shirt that i bought the other weekend and just happened to be wearing tonight.

5) There is a punk rock band called Whole Wheat Bread and one of their singers has gold teeth and looks like outkast

6) it was 16 bucks

7) they have 2 new cds but they only played 3 songs from them

8) the rest of their songs consisted of ones off "steal this record" "destruction by definition" and "the least worst of the sucide machines" which i have owned/currently own

9) they gave me free water

10) i sung into the mike

11) it was an amazing show :)

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[06 Nov 2005|02:06am]
[ mood | thinking ]

Sometimes i don't think and am not sad and then other times i think and i really miss him. i don't like the other times.

bring on turkeydaychristmasspringbreaksuuuummmmer NOW.

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torn [25 Oct 2005|04:03pm]
[ mood | uncomfortable ]
[ music | stuck with me- Green day ]

So I'm picking classes next week and this is stressing me out.
Basically because i want to study abroad so bad. What i'm finding is that Bond University, the only Australian university that has a semester the same as ours... won't work out. it doesn't have any lab courses that would transfer over from what i can see. Unless biochemistry would and i won't even know if i can take it until the australian university can tell me. which will take like 8 weeks.. and I can't have that. There is James cook university however which gets out the next earliest.. June 17. I wouldn't leave until the middle of February but still, thats a MONTH after i would get out for the summer normally. (which equals about 2,000 bucks working at newicks full time, and a priceless amount of justin time). It has a lot of marine science stuff to do, so basically if i go to australia its gonna have to be there.
So i've also been looking at other places and there's this place in Costa rica which sounds really good and they will certify me for research diving, a $300+ value, as part of the experience.. and that would be very good for a resume and to get a job researching things in the water. (plus if i could research dive for a living i'm sure i would love it since i love scuba diving and i'm not even good at it yet). and its in the tropics. one downfall is that it is very academicly oriented so it would be a lot of work.
The only thing making me hesitate between costa rica and australia is the fact that i don't know when (or if) I'll ever be able to go to australia again. and never going again would suck prolly more than a lot of things i can think of right now. but it might be a chance i'll have to take.

i'm so torn. blech.. this blows.

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[23 Oct 2005|02:17am]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | rain ]

SCUBA diving was effing amazing even tho i had to be at the dive site by 9am sat. morning after friday night. I could see my breath so i was like no fuckin way am i gettin in the atlantic ocean in maine. but then i did and it was amazing. the whole bottom was hermit crab city. and thats where i grabbed a fish like this

 

its called a sculpin i think and it was cool cuz he was all intimadating and then he just kinda turned around while i was holding his tail and looked at me as if to say "what is up" and then i let him go and he just chilled out instead of getting the fuck outta there. The bottom of the ocean is PINK.there's this pink moss on all the shells and rocks and we went to this giant pink rock wall where i almost lost my flipper but then i fixed it. there was a cave with lots of weird fish and sooo many starfish. some were kinda purple.. i wonder if they were cold. some only had 2 arms but were still alive which made me happy. a crab fell from the sky... or the top of the ocean i'm not really sure but it freaked me out but then i was like "oh wait i have this wicked thick wetsuit on that protects me from the atlantic ocean so it must protect me from sea crabs!" (and prolly vag crabs too). so then i picked up crabs and kinda juggled them as best as my juggling ability would allow me to underwater. then we found lobsters and i wanted to take them home and eat them. and there were mini flounders that looked like sand untill u touched the sand then they swam away so it was really cool to see that. basically under the sea is really all sebastian from the little mermaid cracks it up to be.  

since i took a nap when i got back it is now 230am and i am not tired. LAME.

oh and big d and the kids table are playing their halloween show and i am so psyched for that. considering i missed them at warped tour boston and half the band wasn't allowed in canada when i saw them there. october 29 at the avalon.. effin be there bitch!

boys can be weird sometimes and i don't know what to do about it cuz i hate being mean or embarassing ppl. so i just shut my mouth and feel awkward.

the perfect college food snack was made today (well to everyone except maybe steph <3) buy brown sugar, apples, and oats, from quaker oats. cut apples and mix everything in a microwaveable dish and continue to microwave it until the brown sugar melts. i can almost guarentee that u will love it

but no guarentees if u don't like apples, brown sugar, or anything else that relates to apple pie/apple crisp

plus i would think the ingredients double as morning oatmeal if u add water or something like that. but i haven't tried it so i do not endorse it.

there was a thin layer of snow in portland today. frowny.

 

 

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[19 Oct 2005|02:08pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | finaid ]

my formerly broken foot and formerly broken wrist hurt a lot today. then lindsey looks on accuweather.com and it says the arthritis index is very high. i'm such an old lady.

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[06 Oct 2005|07:47pm]
[ mood | procrastinating ]
[ music | It takes some time- catch 22 ]

A- Age you lost your virginity?
15

B- Birthday?
July 6

C- Dream Car?
Something that doesn't run on gas. which will prob. be invented by the time i can afford my dream car.

D- Dads name?
Thomas

E- Easiest person to make you laugh?
Justin

F- Food you eat most?
at home its fruit and ice cream. at school its pretty much anything that promotes explosive diarrhea which is defined as: "Excessive and frequent evacuation of watery feces, usually indicating gastrointestinal distress or disorder" according to dictionary.com cuz i didn't know how to spell it so i looked.

G- Any encounter with ghosts?
There's a haunted house on our street and syd got some wierd pictures from out backyard. but not really

I- Interesting fact people don't know about you?
i have a white spot on my tongue from biting it and it hurts a lot.
not very interesting i guess....
i have crotchless thongs?
is that interesting? or too much information... hm.

J- Jumped in a pool with all your clothes on?
more like pushed

K- Kissing with eyes open or closed?
both

L- Last time you did something "bad"?
last weekend maybe? i dunno. i don't have time for bad stuff during the week.

M- Most memorable moment you can think of in a minute?
i don't like this question cuz a minute is actually a long time so when i thought i thought of a lot of things like australianewzealandhighschoolgoingoutwithjustinplayingwithseals.. etc and i can't really pick just one

N- Nicknames?
sweetie, kryssy, krys, kreetle krystAL sissa, kc

O- Whats your most valued possession?
my car... my ipod

P- Person you last talked to on the phone?
jmoney

Q- Quote that you feel represents you right now?

And then I’m gonna love you completely,
And then I'll fuckin fuck you discreetly.
And then I'll fuckin bone you completely
But then I’m gonna fuck you haaaard.
Haaaaa-aaaaa-AARD!!
-- Tenacious D
its been awhile. haha.


R- What "R" you allergic to?
anything that cures infections like pennicillian, arethromicin, sulfurmides and something i took for a thing i had that i don't remember what it was called that reacted with my birth control and made me puke like 3 times in one week.

S- Song you last sang out loud?
You know what they do to guys like us in prison- MCR


T-Time you woke up?
1030.. the only weekday i get to sleep in past 730..

U- U like to sing soft or loud?
loud at concerts. other than that usually not loud

V- Vegetable you hate most?
Spinach - THAT SHIT IS GROSS! (dave chappelle voice)<~~~~~ i'll go with jahleh with that cuz i pretty much feel like vomiting when i eat it unless its in some delicious dish that isn't sushi

W- What are you most afraid of?
BEES. more specifically wasps. i honestly start sweating and panicking if they get in the same room as me.
justin can pretty much vouche for how pathetic it is.

X- X- rated love life?
when said boy is around i'd say so.

Y- Yellowcard or GreenDay?
Greenday... but sometimes yellowcard, it depends on the mood man.

Z- Zodiac Sign?
Cancer

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Oh reminicing [04 Oct 2005|03:25pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Beautiful Oblivion ]

Its kinda a long list so I highlighted the ones i liked but now that i look at em its pretty much all of em.
 
You know you're a child of the 80's when.....
1. You've ever ended a sentence with the word "SIKE"

2. You watched the Pound Puppies.

3. You can sing the rap to the "Fresh Prince of Bel Air"... and can do theCarlton.
4. Girls wore biker shorts under their skirts and felt stylishly sexy.

5. You yearned to be a member of the Baby-sitters club and tried to start a club of your own.
 
6. You owned those little Strawberry Shortcake pals scented
dolls.
7. You know that "WOAH"; comes from Joey on Blossom
 
8. Two words: Hammer Pants
9. If you ever watched "Fraggle Rock";
 
10. You had plastic streamers on your handle bars...! and
"spokey-dokes"; or playing cards on your spokes for that incredible sound effect
11. You can sing the entire theme song to "Duck Tales" (Woo ooh!)
 
12. It was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons.
13. You wore a ponytail on the side of your head.

14. You saw the original "Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles" on the big screen...and still know the turtle's names.
 
15. You got super-excited when it was Oregon Trail day in computer class at school.

16. You made your mom buy one of those clips that would hold your shirt in a knot on the side.
17. You played the game "MASH"; (Mansion, Apartment, Shelter, House)
 
18. You wore stonewashed Jordache jean jackets and were proud of it.

19. L.A. Gear.! ...need I say more?
20. You wanted to change your name to "JEM" in Kindergarten.
(She's truly outrageous.)
 
21. You remember reading "Tales of a fourth grade nothing" and all the Ramona books.
22. You know the profound meaning of "WAX ON, WAX OFF"
23. You wanted to be a Goonie.
24. You ever wore fluorescent clothing. (some of us...head-to-toe)
 
25. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off and his cheeks shifted.
26. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the only female smurf.
 
27. You took lunch boxes to school... and traded Garbage Pail kids in the schoolyard.
28. You remember the CRAZE, then the BANNING of slap bracelets.
 
29. You still get the urge to say ! "NOT" or "duh" after every sentence.
30. You owned and remember Hypercolor t-shirts.
 
32. You thought She-ra (Princess of Power!) and He-Man should hook up.
33. You thought your childhood friends would never leave because you exchanged handmade friendship bracelets.
 
34. You ever owned a pair of Jelly-Shoes. (And like #24, probably in neon colors, too)
35. After you saw Pee-Wee's Big Adventure you kept saying "I know you are, but what am I?"
 
36. You remember "I've fallen and I can't get up"
37. You remember going to the skating rink before there were inline skates.
 
38. You ever got seriously injured on a Slip and Slide.
39. You have ever played with a Skip-It or pogo ball...
 
40. You had or attended a birthday party at McDonalds and got your face painted...
41. You've gone through this nodding your head in agreement.
 
42. You remember Popples and or had a full fledge collection of them.
43. "Don't worry, be happy"
 
44. You wore like, EIGHT pairs of socks over tights with high top Reeboks.
45. You wore socks scrunched down
 
46. You remember boom boxes. . and walking around with one on your shoulder like you were all that.
47. You remember watching both "Gremlins" movies. I was sooo scared
 
48. You know what it meant to say "Care Bear Stare!!"
49. You remember watching "Rainbow Bright" and "My Little Pony Tales"

51. You remember Alf, the little furry brown alien from Melmac and used to hide your cats at night....
 
52. You remember New Kids on the Block when they were cool... and don't even flinch when people refer to them as "NKOTB"
53. You knew all the characters names and their life stories on "Saved By the Bell: The ORIGINAL class".
 
54. You know all the words to Bon Jovi - SHOT THROUGH THE HEART.
55. You just sang those words to yourself.
 
56. You remember watching Magic vs. Bird.
57. Homemade Levi shorts.. (the shorter the better)
 
58. You remember when mullets were cool!
59. You had a mullet!
 
60. You still sing "We are the World"
61. You "pegged"/"tight" rolled your jeans.
 
62. You owned a banana clip.
63. You remember "Where's the Beef?"
 
64. You used to (and probably still do) say "What you talkin' about Willis?"
65. You had big hair and you knew how to use it.
65.You wanted to be a Thunder Cat. HO!!!!!!!!!!
 
66. You're still singing "shot through the heart" in your head, aren't you and waving your hands in the air like you are at a bon jovi concert?!?!
PASS THIS ON TO ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS WHO GREW UP IN THE 80s or
early 90s!!!
ROCK ON!!!
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